Monday, January 28, 2013

the sound of silence

As I sit here drinking my coffee, I am savoring the most beautiful sound. The sound of complete and utter silence. Monday mornings are usually this way. After I take Lance to work, I come home and have a few hours of complete aloneness. Usually I have to work, but often take some time when I first get home to breathe and simply sit and absorb life a little bit. 


Today the quiet is exceptionally alluring and peaceful. I spent the past week experiencing what could be a glimpse into my distant future. Lance and I were house/child/dog/cat sitting for the week and I was completely caught off guard by how exhausted I was when it was all over. Yes, the kids went to school during the day, but then I went and hung out with other children. So my week was basically a blur of kids galore, maintaining schedules, subduing tantrums, cooking, cleaning, middle-of-the-night nightmares, etc. In general, it was great. Really, it was. Especially doing it with Lance (the only child who has never even held a baby!) and getting to see a quick peek into how he would be as father. You always hear women proclaiming that seeing their husbands as fathers is, well, sexy. It always seems (to me anyway!) like a slightly odd connection, but now I think I just might get it! ;)

This is Oscar. He slept with us every night and liked to be under the covers with his head on the pillow. He also pees in the toilet. He thinks he's a person.

This morning is my first time being alone since then. It has really reminded me how important this time is for me. I mean, I fully accept and am completely aware that I am an introvert, but I fall into the same patterns as most Americans seem to of glorifying "busy". So, I fill my schedule as much as possible and am constantly griping about how "busy" I am. It's funny because there have been times in my life where I have been a lot busier, with many more mandatory and challenging things on my plate, but, nevertheless, I continue to busy myself with other things and then complain about them.


The stark contrast of a week with children and animals all up in my business compared to this moment of being completely alone has reminded me to set aside times where I am NOT busy and where I can be by myself. I need alone time. I crave it. I recharge with it. Without it I get a little crazy and on edge (sorry hubby!). And yet, somehow, I often forget to take it.



P.S. Just in case I needed something else to busy myself with, I have joined Vine (a new app like Instagram, but for sharing short videos!). I'm Kylee Noelle, come find me!


16 comments:

Natalia said...

Such a beautiful post! Love it! x

Allie said...

I totally get where you are coming from. I feel like I am an introvert and often complain when I'm too busy but then kind of, secretly, love it. haha. Sounds like a very busy weekend indeed!

Rachael {all things beautiful} said...

Quiet moments like that are definitely a must in life. Sounds like you needed it especially so after the week you had.

xo

Yelle said...

Oh my, Oscar the cat is so cute! I adore how he is pretty much a little person! I would love to have a cat like that!

AlyciaMealy said...

Oh how i miss that! Being a mom is wonderful but i do miss having slow silent mornings!

xoxo
leesh

lost in travels said...

I completely agree with you. Sometimes I take for granted the silence when I have it. I get so used to being busy and then I don't know what to do with myself when there's no one around!

Jenny said...

What a lovely post! I always savour the silence as it seems like such a rarity, haha. xo

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helen said...

this post speaks to me so much because I completely relate to how you felt having quiet time after sitting for sweet kids/pets/etc. though so rewarding, it is an exhausting blur that merits sweet alone time :)

Bree TheUrbanUmbrella said...

hahah I totally get how you feel. I definitely am someone who likes to be alone. In fact until I was about 15 I'd say I kind of had preferred it just because I was so shy. Now I like it to clear my mind and get myself sorted. I dog-sit for my parents quite often and afterwards I always enjoy my "relax me time" a lot. Plus, me time = blog time. hehe!


xoxo Bree
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